Happy 1st Blog Anniversary to Me

Wow, one year already! It’s actually been a bit longer than that, but I have been slacking with posting here on my site. What an adventure it has been since I started this endeavor over a year ago. When I first started my blog, my goal was just to help people, and even myself, by sharing my stories. And the more personal my stories, the more support I got from friends, and even people I’ve never met before in the blogging universe. That has been the best feeling ever, feeling that I am making some small difference in someone’s life.

It’s been difficult to keep up with my goal of a weekly post, especially as the year has gone on. And it is difficult to promote my blog while at the same time trying to stay off social media as much as possible. So I say to anyone out there who is reading and who has been enjoying my blog, please subscribe and you can read my posts directly in your email.

A new year is upon us, and I have to admit, 2019 was a pretty rough year for me. I had hoped that it wouldn’t be because I also struggled during 2018. I think I’ve just been feeling a bit lost. Moving here to Arizona has been the best decision for my family. Our daughters are thriving out here, my husband has a great job and we’ve made lots of friends, some really great ones.

So why do I feel this way, despite my life being as great as it is?

Yes, I am married to the most incredible man, and we have 2 of the most amazing daughters I could ever ask for. But I can’t help but think: who am I, without my family?

I believe moving here has forced me to really look at myself. I don’t have all the family support that I used to have back in Florida. I am out here, raising my children, without the help I once took for granted. I find myself wondering if I am a good mother, if I am doing right by my girls, if I am a good wife, and even, if I am a good person.

I have started many projects in an attempt to get me out of this funk, this blog being one of them. I got my Certificate in Plant-Based Nutrition, I started (and stopped and started) studying to get re certified as a Fitness Instructor since fitness has always been my passion. I joined the PTA at my daughter’s school to get more involved. All have lit a spark in me at first, but soon fizzle out.

Now, coming up on my 30th birthday in a few months, the feeling of “What have I done with my life?” is stronger than ever. It can get pretty daunting.

But I won’t let this feeling consume me, not this time.

Family time

I know I am an incredible mother, I am a wonderful wife, and I am a great person.

My goal for this year is to really focus on myself. Accomplish the goals I sought to accomplish last year. And to stay committed and be consistent.

I promise to workout everyday, drink lots of water, and eat healthier. I promise to read more books, study fitness and work towards getting re certified. I promise to blog weekly and stay off social media as much as possible. I promise to be grateful for everyday I have with my husband and kids.

2019 was tough, but that doesn’t mean 2020 has to be too. I am stronger than I think I am. Another year over, and I hope I’m another year wiser. I cannot wait to see what 2020 has in store for me.

Happy bloggiversary to me!

Bring it on 2020!

-Toniann